I can't bite my tongue forever; while you try to play it cool.

You were something special for me to look forward to texting everyday; but now I can't even bare to look at your name in my contacts. Seeing you on my news feed makes my heart hurt to know how easy it was for you to just forget everything! Everything you said to me was a whole lie, the reason I fell for you was because of a lie you told and held on to for five months before I found out the truth from my best friends boyfriend; which you didn't seem to care about. Now I'm glad I have nothing to do with you, you knew what I had been through in the past, you made promises you just couldn't keep and you made my assumptions true and now I don't trust people easily.

But what I don't get is the text's I get once maybe twice a month from you; asking me if I'm upset; how can you leave it a month not speaking to me then ask if I'm upset; you made me really happy then you just left. How do you think that made me feel? 

Then you text me and message me if we can talk... what makes you think after two months; asking me if I'm upset and lying to me about something that you know is a sensitive subject for me that I'm going to want to talk to you again. Why are you asking me when you've been drinking? Do I come in to you head when you've been drinking? or am I on your mind when your sober you just don't have the guts so you text me at stupid hours of the morning when your hammered. Your playing mind games with me and it's not fair; either talk to me properly or don't talk to me at all. I wan't to say something to you so badly but I know that will leave me wanting to be around you again and then I will be down that same road again and I'll get even more hurt.

I can't deal with being messed up anymore; I've been led on too much in the past and I can't deal with it again.